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| Oh, Xanga. I began you over three years ago as a high school Sophomore, and now here I sit typing on you again as a college Freshmen. I cannot believe how much I've changed over the years, growing and developing into a mature young adult. And you, my dear friend Xanga, have been there for me all three years, letting me bitch through writing and express myself each day. I'm only sorry that I have not payed as much attention to you this last year as I did the first two.
Anyways, by looking back throughout high school, I do believe I have changed. But it was for the better. I have become a happy, caring, intelligent person, and I could not have done that without the support of my family and friends. Without them, I know I wouldn't have survived my depression (or at least would have a lot more scars...both emotionally and physically). I believe that I am truly blessed because of my family and friends - I have the best that any girl could ever ask for. Now at U of I, I am making a lot of friends that I know I will stay in touch with forever, but I also will never let go of the amazing friends I have here at home. I don't know where I would be without them.
It's so strange how people grow with you no matter the time span you have known them. For example, my dear friend Mandy has been my friend since second grade and I cannot believe how close we are. Yet, I met Matt only my Junior year of high school, and me and him share a special bond that I cannot even begin to understand (and if I try, it just makes my brain hurt). Man...I love my friends so so much.
And my family - I have grown so close to them all within the past year. I think the fact that we don't all live under the same roof anymore helps. I understand them all so much better, and I cannot imagine my life without any single one of them. They have been the main cause of my growth over the past four years, helping me develop into the lady I am today. And I have nothing but thanks for them for that.
I guess that's mostly what this entry is about - praising my friends and family for their amazingness. Although I still do not believe in God, I do believe in angels, but not the type with wings and halos; I believe the people around me are angels. They are definitely MY angels - they have helped me through my most troubled times, thereby helping me grow. As cliched as it sounds, without them I don't think I would be here today.
So bless you all in everything you do. I don't know what I would do without you.
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| I always want to update this thing, but I never have anything to say. How sad.
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| | You Are a Visionary Soul |  You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul |
| You Are An ISFJ | The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. |
| You Are Very Skeptical |  Your personal motto is: "Prove it."
While some ideas, like life after death, may seem nice...
You aren't going to believe them simply because it feels good.
You let science and facts be your guide... Even if it means you don't share the beliefs of those around you. |
| You Have Good Karma |  In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots. |
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