miss_missa07's Xanga

Reflections

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 05:28:39 GMT

Oh, Xanga. I began you over three years ago as a high school Sophomore, and now here I sit typing on you again as a college Freshmen. I cannot believe how much I've changed over the years, growing and developing into a mature young adult. And you, my dear friend Xanga, have been there for me all three years, letting me bitch through writing and express myself each day. I'm only sorry that I have not payed as much attention to you this last year as I did the first two.

Anyways, by looking back throughout high school, I do believe I have changed. But it was for the better. I have become a happy, caring, intelligent person, and I could not have done that without the support of my family and friends. Without them, I know I wouldn't have survived my depression (or at least would have a lot more scars...both emotionally and physically). I believe that I am truly blessed because of my family and friends - I have the best that any girl could ever ask for. Now at U of I, I am making a lot of friends that I know I will stay in touch with forever, but I also will never let go of the amazing friends I have here at home. I don't know where I would be without them.

It's so strange how people grow with you no matter the time span you have known them. For example, my dear friend Mandy has been my friend since second grade and I cannot believe how close we are. Yet, I met Matt only my Junior year of high school, and me and him share a special bond that I cannot even begin to understand (and if I try, it just makes my brain hurt). Man...I love my friends so so much.

And my family - I have grown so close to them all within the past year. I think the fact that we don't all live under the same roof anymore helps. I understand them all so much better, and I cannot imagine my life without any single one of them. They have been the main cause of my growth over the past four years, helping me develop into the lady I am today. And I have nothing but thanks for them for that.

I guess that's mostly what this entry is about - praising my friends and family for their amazingness. Although I still do not believe in God, I do believe in angels, but not the type with wings and halos; I believe the people around me are angels. They are definitely MY angels - they have helped me through my most troubled times, thereby helping me grow. As cliched as it sounds, without them I don't think I would be here today.

So bless you all in everything you do. I don't know what I would do without you.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 17:10:33 GMT

I always want to update this thing, but I never have anything to say. How sad.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 18:52:57 GMT

'Ello again, Xanga.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 01:47:34 GMT

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

You Are Very Skeptical

Your personal motto is: "Prove it."
While some ideas, like life after death, may seem nice...
You aren't going to believe them simply because it feels good.
You let science and facts be your guide... Even if it means you don't share the beliefs of those around you.

How Skeptical Are You?

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 02:43:22 GMT

Xanga is offically dead.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 00:42:17 GMT

: TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: not really
2. are you happy?: not right now
3. are you talking to anyone right now?: mmhm
5. are you German?: partly
6 are you Irish?: nope
7. are you French?: nope
8. are you British?: nope
9. are your parents still married?: yes
10. do you like someone right now?: yes

TEN FAVORITES.
1. store: Best Buy
2. flowers: roses
3. color: green
4. sport: football or baseball I suppose
5. mall: doesnt really matter
6. music: Rock - all kinds, although alternative is my fav
7. food: chinese
8. season: fall
9. animal: cat
10. state: i dunno...New York I guess

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: Highland
2. hair color: brown
3. Natural color: brown
4. hair style: long & curly
5. eye color: green
6. best friend(s): alex, mandy, amber, sarah, amanda n
7. mood: upset
8. skin color: its kinda tan i guess
9. Clothes: kahki pants & band t-shirt from freshman year
10. lefty/righty: righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love?: i think so
2. do you believe in love: yes
3. why did your last relationship fail?: erm...i dont wanna go into that
4. have you ever been heartbroken: yeah
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: i think so
6. ever fallen for your best friend: yes
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: yes
8. are you afraid of commitment: not really
9. has someone ever kissed your hand: not that i can recall heh
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: not that i know of. thats the point of it being secret, isnt it?

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or trust: trust - you need trust in order to have love
2. girls or boys: boys
3. night or day: night
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships
5. television or internet: internet
6. pepsi or coke? i dont really have a preference
7. wild night out or romantic night in: depends on my mood; usually the romantic night in though
8. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
9. phone or in person: in person
10. dirty or clean: clean

TEN HAVE Y0U EVER.
1. have you ever been caught sneaking out? no
2. have you ever skinny dipped: nope
3. have you ever done something you regret: eh...yeah...unfortantly
4. have you ever sky dived: nope
5. have you ever been on a house boat: no
6. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: mmhm
7. have you ever danced in the rain: yup

10. have you ever had a hangover?: nope

Monday, September 18, 2006

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 01:24:14 GMT

Your results:
You are Spider-Man

Spider-Man		75%
Superman		65%
Robin		60%
The Flash		55%
Supergirl		53%
Green Lantern		50%
Batman		50%
Catwoman		40%
Wonder Woman		38%
Hulk		35%
Iron Man		25%

You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 00:46:28 GMT

Does anyone still use xanga?

It seems almost dead now =(.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 18:31:35 GMT

I wish someone would just listen to me for once.

I hate hormones.

And the fact that my weekend has been hell.

Colleges I am applying to:
U of I
Penn State
SIUE
SEMO
perhaps ISU or Northwestern or something

Nothing seems to make sense anymore. I need more sleep.
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I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 00:26:31 GMT

I made a homecoming t-shirt design. To view it, visit http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/38560389/